Ahinoam the Jezreelite
2 Samuel 25, 43
Somebody took your place, honey. Not that you had hopes, right? No way you thought… you’re so handsome
No, no, I knew you wouldn’t.
No one fucks like you do, but I’ll never tell you that. I miss you all the time, I’ll never tell you that either. I look at you now, and you look the same. I knew there’d come a day that we would talk kindly and politely, and everything would be just fine, and it tore my heart. That’s not the only thing that tore my heart.
I would dress up for you and we would get drunk, dance in the water, I would sit on the kitchen counter as we were cooking, and we’d make out. I’ll never forget, when I was lying on my back in your bed, you stood by my head and put your cock in my mouth. I managed to take it deeper than ever before, into my throat. You paused for a second, surprised, and then continued fucking my throat untill you came.
And yes, there have been many since. I don’t know how many. A lot. I used every one of them as another reason we could never get back together, even if I forget the pain.
In hindsight, sometimes you would fuck me as a way to punish me, about something that made you mad. Those were short fucks, your cock would be so hard, you always found a position that caused me pain, you always came somewhere so that people could see.
One time I was angry with you and we had a fight, you seemed so genuine when you made up with me, you were so charming. Later you fucked me in a closet in the back of the house, and didn’t look at me again the whole day.
How could you abandon me. That’s all I want to say to you. I want to look into your eyes and say, how could you abandon me.
You would leave me panties in random places so that other people would find them. I didn’t think you would just leave. I imagined many things, but I never thought you would just leave.
So I moved on. It took so long, and there were so many nights that I masturbated thinking about you, hating myself for it. I would always go back to that one time, I was busy with the laundry, you came behind me without me noticing, grabbed my breasts and pushed a full erection against my ass, you turned my head and kissed me, as you were grinding against me. I went to my knees and sucked your cock until you came on my face. You looked at me from above, I could see you were enjoying yourself.
I loved you so much and you’re so handsome. You’ll never know.
That’s what happened when you left, you left a space between us, and now we can’t talk anymore. Now we’ll always be apart. I wish you had never left. It would all be different, if only you hadn’t left.
1 Smauel 25 43
43 David had also married Ahinoam of Jezreel, and they both were his wives.